Saturday, February 7, 2009

The creative energy comes from within, its innate, its undeniable, and its extemely frustrating.....

I have been following this blog, Brazen Careerist, its brutally honest, eye opening and actually fun to read.... Today, I read this one:

The post put the kind of struggle that I have been dealing with mentally for the past couple of years in words, and now I am certain that I am not alone in this. It makes me feel at ease when my fears are confronted by someone else, better yet, comforted. It's also great to know that I am not alone in feeling the way I do (I knew I wasn't that special).....

When I graduated college, I promised myself that I will never give up my passion - to create art, one way or another no matter where life takes me because my biggest fear was to stop creating. My first apartment after college was small and I had a roommate, but the thought of getting rid of my painting and craft stuff never even occurred to me, even though it was a pain to move them whenever I moved. Even if I had to devote previous space to my creative endeavors in an already crammed place, I dealt with it. It meant more than anything else in the world to me to have that little block of space. That little block of space was symbolic to me, it constantly reminded me of what I truly need to do in life, I was comforted to know that I can create art whenever a strike of sudden inspiration came to me. In some way, that little block of space gave life a purpose. I, now, have a slightly bigger block of space and no roommates, and I am greatly thankful for that.

I don't need to be a professional artist in order to make art. After all, that's not the reason for my love for art. If I am a true creator, I will create no matter what. I am comforted to know that having a day job is quite okay because starving artists don't have the basic means to make art anyways. I should not constantly feel like I am a sellout and have abanndoned my passion because I am not actively pursuing the career of a professional artist. If you are struggling with similar ideals, you shouldn't feel terrible either....

Creativity is innate, its an undeniable force from within, an energy that drives me crazy when I can't create. As long as I am not completely turning my back on creating art, I think I am okay with whatever the outcome of my passion is. Love art for the sake of art, and nothing else. If I can make enough money one day solely dependent on selling art or some hybrid version of it, I will toast to life. if not, it will be my hobby and my interest. The simple act of creating art is rewarding enough regardless of what it could bring me. Have faith I tell myself, have faith. Lisi Wang
Arlington, VA

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